So, pick up where I left off, my life is interesting at best. There have been a lot of changes since I started this blog. Some of my dogs and cats have come and gone, so have several people. I've grown as a person and found out a lot of new things about myself. I often find myself wandering aimlessly in a great void of my own consciousnesses and going through old memories and thoughts without a real idea of what I really want in this world. I really hate uncertainty, more than I hate anything else. The idea of this going badly and losing what I love makes my knees quake with fear. The only thing that I have ever really been afraid of is being only. I have never in my life been truly alone, or truly unhappy. So the idea of not being surrounded by scores of friends and family frightens me. I don't know why I'm saying all this, but it feels good.
I feel like I can really be myself on this page, maybe because no one follows it. I like being able to write this all down some where, weather anyone reads it or not. I feel like I can be a complete idiot and not have to worry about what people think of me.
I'm going to post this now and pray if anyone ever does follow this blog, this post gets buried beneath all the beautiful and inspiring things I'd like to say here.
Sincerely, Alex.
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